Life is a roller coaster. It just is! There’s never a
moments time where I think, “Life has been going perfectly my way for years.”
But, that’s okay. Also, I love quotes. I’ve always loved them. In middle school, I’d
always have cut-out love and hopeless romantic quotes pasted all over my
binder. This week has been a really really good one, yet, I still fall. And don’t
we all? I was talking with my mother and sister about my friendship situation.
I was starting to feel like I was the one with the problem because there hasn’t
ever been an individual besides my husband that has equally cared about me the
way I care about them. My mom gave me some incredible advice, and I took it.
Trevor also sat me down a few weeks ago and said, “I learned at a young age
that friends just come and go. And you need to take that, learn it, and know
it.” Sooo I make mistakes, right? Who doesn’t? But at the same time, I think at
times I’m a perfectionist and I am SO incredibly hard on myself. I get so down
if I do something wrong and I feel so so guilty. If I hurt someone, I have to immediately
apologize and I say sorry countless times. So I get pretty mad at myself! I
have a hard time forgiving myself and just letting go of the mistakes I made .
I talked to my mom about it for a little bit and she said, “I was the same
exact way when I was married. I’d feel so guilty if I got home after dad did,
or if I didn’t have dinner ready at the exact moment it should be.” So I guess
it’s hereditary. Worrying, being a perfectionist about the kind of person you
are, and feeling guilt over little things is something I got from my mother.
There’s a quote that has stood out to me ever since I realized this about
myself. It. Is. Amazing.
Every time I’m having a hard time forgiving myself or
letting go of something I have done, I think of this particular quote. I need to deal with the
fact that I’m not perfect. I never will be. And all I can do is try my best to
be the person I want to be, repent, and start new. Just like the Savior
intended for us to do.