Amos Lee said in one of his songs, “Lately I, I’ve been
headed for a breakdown…” Thankfully, Mr.
Schroeder is constantly there to help me pull through. But last night, I
broke down, and I was all alone. It’s been headed my way for awhile now. I
texted a couple of my best friends and one of them said, “I had been trying to
be strong for everyone else and be what everyone else wanted that I lost
myself.” It sorta hit me. Though I am who I am, and I know who I am, I have
been shut down by people. I find people to trust, and again, they find a way to
throw me back down. But why do I let them? I guess it’s hard when you trust
someone with 100% of your thoughts and feelings, when they are only there to
get something out of you. I’ve had enough. My other friend sent me an amazing and powerful video. I can’t
find a way to embed it, so I am going to type the words out. For those of you
who have ever been treated like they weren’t enough or for those of you who don’t
feel they are enough, please, read
these words. And if they don’t work the first time, read them over and over
until they do.
You are beautiful. You are smart. You are funny. You are
kind. You are unique. You are worthy of love and affection. You are never too
much and you are always enough. You are precious. You are a diamond, a rose, a
pearl, the most stunning of all God’s creation. You are worth more than you
could ever imagine. You are worth more than the number on the scales, or the
hair product you use, or the shoes you wear. You are worth more than how many
girls wish they were you or how many guys wish they had you, more than the
price tags on your clothes, or the percentage at the top of your math test, or
even the number of followers you have on
twitter. Your worth surpasses all earthly things because in the eyes of the
Lord God, you are loved and you are worth dying for. Regardless of who you
think you are, whether you model in a magazine, or you model pottery with Grandma,
whether you are on the hot list, or the not list, whether you are a head
cheerleader or a high school dropout, whether you’re miss popular, or you’ve
never had anyone you could call a friend, whether you love yourself or love
your life or you can’t stand to look in the mirror and you feel as if
everything in your life is falling apart, whether you’re such a winner or you
feel like the world’s biggest failure. Regardless of who you think you are, the
reality is is that you deserve someone who would give up their life for you
because you are powerful and strong and capable. Read about the women in the
Bible: Esther, Ruth, Martha, Mary, these women changed the world forever and
inside of you, each and every one of you is a woman with that same power and
that same strength and that same world changing capability. Your responsibility
is to find that woman and to set that woman free. This is who you are. Any
voices in your mind that try and tell you differently are from the enemy. The
next time you hear it, this is what you say, “No. Not me, Satan. I am a
daughter of the living God, cherished, loved, and adored above all things by
the creator of all things for the glory of Him who is greater than all things. I am awesome."
Please, don't you forget it.